Ai REN!!!
u there?!
u noe wat happen to seline and her bf?
i think sth happen.
haa.
frm her msn nick.
to her friendster.
now her status is 'its complicated' leh.
den her testi.
i believe tat one oso not written by her bf de.
lalala``
mi abit kpo leh.
but i didan wana ask her.
lol.
=D

Module Description	Module Code	Module Type	Module Credit	Module Group
RF CIRCUIT SIMULATION	EG3164	PE	5	EG3164-02
TELECOMMUNICATIONS	EG3240	CM	5	EG3240-A4
WIRELESS MOBILE COMMUNICATIONS	EG3241	CM	5	EG3241-A4
RF ENGINEERING	EG3242	CM	5	EG3242-A4
PROFESSIONAL & INTERPERSONAL COMM SKILLS	EG3250	CM	3	EG3250-AD
MOBILE APPLICATIONS PROJECT	EG3341	CM	5	EG3341-A4
NATIONAL EDUCATION	EG9865	SE	0	EG9865-AD

and oso ai ren.
can go e-service check ur registered modules le.
see whether same class or not ba.
=p
look at the mmodules im taking for next sem.
omg.
look so chim lor.
still got wat 'national education'.
lol.

btw i din went to work todae.
coz hafta bring my mother to hospital for a check up lor.
den june called mi.
im so sorry june.
i not purposely to dua u de.
find other dae den i work wif u k.
=p

i had 'nagged' at iris for not online-ing.
for not spending ABIT of her time reading our blogs.
resulting she is so lack abt us.
dunno abit more abt us.
den i sae.
'wat kind of friend is this'
lol.
kidding de lah of coz.
she reallie so TAT BUSY mah?
or is mi?
im the one who is slacking?
lol.
ya!
nyp is a slack sch!
LOL!!!
=D

hais.
im so damn freaking tired.
for this past week.
everydae lack of slp.
slp for tat few hrs nia.
i reallie need a break.
argh!!!

You see the world as it is, even through rose-tinted glasses.

You tend to dream some big dreams, and sometimes, reality never hits you.

You are very independent, and have a strange aloofness to family ties.

You love the feeling of protection, but do not enjoy being bossed around.

You are breezy and unconventional in your relationships with men.

But you are a trusting child at heart.

Your moods can be terrible, but they are rare, and they last so briefly they will hardly be noticed.

When you are really hurt, your tongue can be bitterly sarcastic.

You are intelligent, and know what's right.

You like to take things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble or not thinking about other people's feelings.

But you are patient when it comes to love...

Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

Loyal and generous.

sexy.

Patriotic.

Active in games and interactions.

Impatient and hasty.

Ambitious.

Influential in organizations.

Fun to be with.

Loves to socialize.

Loves praises.

Loves attention.

Loves to be loved.

Honest and trustworthy.

Do not pretend.

i tot i will be having dinner alone.
or not going to haf dinner le.
suddenly recieved a sms from zi hao asking am i meeting him and iris for dinner.
i was like.
-huh-
when?
den i called iris lor.
she told mi tat she meeting him.
actually got mi.
but our hair cut cancel le wat.
so no lor.
den she ask mi wana join or not.
den i sae ok lor.
since i got no where for dinner.
we all meet at taka.
had our dinner at crystal jade.
den aft tat had a drink at starbucks.
chatted lor.
chatted abt poly life.
chatted abt sec sch life.
omg.
talked abt sec sch life.
the things i did.
or we did.
is reallie childish.
is reallie nian shao wu zhi.
think back.
is reallie damn funnie lor.
lol.
ya.
we had grown up le ba.
or not yet?
who noes?
hmm.
den we leave ard 2340.
and i reached home at 0030.
yup.

shld be havin my hair cut wif iris on mon.
ya.
mayb ask june out too!
lalala``
=D

going to tampines at 1800 for the band meeting.
i dunno wat they wana talk abt.
-.-

juz now aft wat iris told mi.
i started to haf a feeling of avoiding him.
hais.
coz i dunno wat to do.
i noe no one can help mi wif this.
i can onli 'settle' by myself.
hais.

ya.
dun grumble ur life is ku.
shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu.
=)

back from hospital.
yup.
acc my mother for operation mah.
den aft tat suppose to go for hair cut wif iris de.
but our 'hairstylist' kelvin is on leave.
haa.
mayb going on mondae ba.
i oso wana go and book my BTT le leh.
coz aft talking wif june(my mgr) ytd.
she sae the earlier i take is better.

nth much to sae le leh.

praying to be in the same class as my ai ren.
*PRAY

first i wana correct shan's blogging.

SHAN!!!
i think u made a mistake.
the sushi which all of us sae not nice is yun's.
not iris'.
opps!
yun im SORRY!
=x
but is ok lah.
u sae iris' sux she oso dunno.
i think she oso nv read our blog de.
so u can comment all u wan!
LOL!
=D

went to work juz now.
ya.
den i found out tat NO ONE went to the concert in my store.
i still tot they are the first ones who supported mi in the first place.
faridah and janice cant leave store on time.
i dunno they stayed till wat time.
serene is she woke up its already 7pm.
coz she overnight the previous.
hai.
wat can i sae?
wat can i do?
angry?
no ba.
more to disappointed.
ya.
watever it is.
the concert is over.
we did a great job afterall.
we sold 880 tix out of 900.
yup!
=)

ya.
back to my work.
june is working.
omg.
we two work ah.
reallie siao.
bth.
den steve vincent chan called her.
ya.
my ex-1st assit in kallang.
he rmb mi.
he told june tat im ***.
omg!!!
tats those old batch of mgr call mi.
now he told june.
hope she wun spread for mi.
if not.
-.-
lol.
ya.
real fun working wif her.
=)
den this fri im not working.
but june opening.
den i ask june to put mi work on fri morning lor.
ya.
im working from 0800 to 1500.
working wif tat siao char bo.
den i tell her.
ppl peacefully come mac for breakfast.
fri wif we 2.
the store will be noisy.
lol.
den fri punch out at 1500.
aft tat shld be meeting ian to go to the band chalet at changi.
for dunno wat meeting.
infusion 2?
lalala``
=p
actually the meeting is on sat 1400 de.
i shld be working.
tat story is long.
wait till i fix my sat's schedule den sae ba.

btw!
anybody going to airport to pick june up on sat?
hee.
=p

haven been blogging since sat.

recalling..

sat.
met june in the morning at j8 to haf breakfast at cartel.
den aft tat went to band.
reached there ard 11+ ba.
band prac end at 2200.
im freaking tired aft tat.
i still went mac wif them aft tat.
reached home ard midnight ba.

sun.
my first band concert performance.
yup.
excited.
met june in the morning at j8 for breakfast at long john.
den went to sch.
took our instrument.
off we go to vch.
reached there.
settled down.
start our rehersal.
den had our dinner at 1800++.
changed.
den our concert started at 1930 sharp.
it was alright i guess.
when having interval.
mi and june went out.
so happy to see all my jies are there to support us.
mdm wu and mr wee was there too!
di and her bf too!
i cant see them initially.
till the end of concert.
i saw 2 ppl keep waving.
den finally i realise is them!
yup!
thanx SO MUCH!!!
and oso the rest who came to support the concert.
reallie hafta thank all of them.
without them coming and support.
i think the concert wun be a success.
hmm.
during the encore piece.
the friends for life.
din expect tat simon will talk.
saeing abt jonathan.
saeing abt our band prac timing.
8am to 6pm.
i was thinking.
hello!
it till 9 ++ 10pm lor.
lol!
=D
all he sae is reallie our hard work.
although our concert is onli tat 2hrs.
all of us had put in 1 and 1/2 yrs of our time and hard work.
all our time spent in exchange of tat 2hrs of achievement.
seeing so many ppl came.
i think is worth it.
during his speech.
i teared.
omg.
=p
aft the concert.
june hafta leave to shanghai.
im reallie upset tat i cant go and send her off.
i noe i hafta go back sch.
so i din blame anyone.
i juz feel sad.
and i cried.
OMG!
=p
lalala``
panda followed our bus went back to whitley.
mayb tat was the last time im back to whitley le.
simon talked to us again.
he sae the concert was well done.
we did a very good job.
i think we hafta believe him.
he rarely praise us de.
so when he praise.
i think he reallie mean it.
=)
took a number of group photos.
den aft tat.
we went mac to haf our supper.
ya.
tat few daes everydae mac sia.
we left ard 0030.
we took a cab back.
alice.
florence.
panda.
and mi.
yup.
the concert is over.
am i sad?
abit ba.
florence asked mi.
IF ever there is a infusion 2.
will i join.
i told her.
mayb.
most prob ba.
yup!
=)
tat is one of my interest.
i dun wana stop it aft one.
wish to continue.
like what jonathan sae b4 the concert end.
'see you next year!'
yup.
i hope so.

btw.
i still dunno my mac gang got went to the concert of not.
cannot find them since the start of the concert till the end.
din call and us them.
coz i scared i will be sad aft hearing their ans.

aft the concert reached home ard 0130.
bathed.
and started to do my jellies for my da jie de chalet.
i idi it all by myself this time round.
previous times i did got wif my mother help de.
this time dun haf lah.
in the middle of the night.
my mother sleeping lah.
lol.
aft doing.
plus all the clearing and cleaning up.
its already 0530.
wah.
went to slp.
den yun called i ard 1330 ba.
den i woke up.
packed all my stuffs.
went to downtown.
reached there ard 1730 ba.
im the first to reach.
haa.
den by 2000 lydat.
all reached.
started eating.
it was fun lah.
coz wif iris and all her rubbish plus craps.
omg.
i laugh till peng lor.
bth.
den 2100++.
had the cake.
had all the photo taking.
aft the cake.
most of them leaving le.
onli left mi,ruizhu and yun's neighbour.
den during midnight we playing some games.
uno stako.
dai dee.
bluff.
and plus some more.
lose le hafta forfit.
is to eat or drink.
omg.
i dunno y am i so damn sway.
lose alot lor.
so mean tat i eat and drink alot alot.
till im bloated.
lol.
den ruizhu left ard 4+ or 5am ba.
her parent come and fetch her.
den aft tat we went to slp.
wake up ard 9+.
pack up.
den went home.
reach home ard 11 lydat.
went to bed and slp immediately.
lol.
slp till 1930 den wake up.
nv slp for so long ever since last week le ba.
haa.

tml decided not to go for the interview le.
ya xiu im not going le.
hee.
actually not working de.
but faridah ask mi to work.
so ok lor.
1500 to 2200.

wana wish yun da jie..
happy 19th birthday!!!
=D

wnet to work at 1030.
for an outdoor party.
went wif dee.
the party was not bad.
quite fun.
juz tat the guy host sux lor.
outdoor party is always better.
hee.
den went back to store.
did counter.
till 1330.
den punch out.
stayed awhile.
to eat the new apple dipper.
not bad lah.
den went off liao.
reach home its already abt 1430 le.
suppose to be meeting june at 1500 de.
but ended up we meet at 1630.
met luvina too!
haa.
we went shop for our concert clothing lor.
searching for quite a long time.
finally found.
at osmose.
not bad lah.
quite nice.
mi and june bought the same.
hee.
den aft tat was waiting for iris and xiu for dinner!
woo!
lol.
had dinner at taka de pepper lunch.
actually was not bad lah.
lol.
aft dinner they wana go off le.
den.
so.
go home lor.

tml meeting june at 0900 at j8 cartel for breakfast!
b4 band at 1000.
sure late de lah.
lol.

sundae concert le!!!
wahaha!!!

next week im DAMN FREAKING busy lor.
sundae concert.
mon and tue yun's chalet.
wed im going for an interview.
y interview?
the story goes like this.

juz now we all went orchard right?
june wana draw money.
so we 3(mi june and lu) walk pass the orchard mrt station.
all of u noe tat got ALOT ppl do survey all sorts of these de.
den a guy approach us.
ask us wana do survey.
i look at june.
june look at mi.
den i sae.
'haa! anything lor'
den june walk away coz she go draw money.
left mi there doing the survey.
u muz be asking where's lu?
she standing at the side dunno smile wat.
LOL!!!
=D
the survey was abt working thingy de lah.
finish the survey.
got my name.
got my contact num.
den june juz nice came back.
so we left.
den when i reach home.
ard 2200++.
tat guy who surveyed mi called mi.
saeing im shortlisted for the interview.
the job is sth to do wif business de lah.
im oso not veri sure abt tat.
den i sae ok lor.
interview on wed 1500 at raffles point building.
go see how is it like lor.
if good.
den i can get rid of my mac job!
lol!
see how is it first lah.

ok.
den thurs i acc my mother to hospital for her eye operation.
see how if finish early mayb going for a haircut wif iris.
fri, sat and sun im working.
omg.
see how packed is my next week.

oh ya!
zhi wei and my bro is going to watch the band concert.
im paying for them.
plus the clothing i bought juz now.
ya.
im broke.
omg.

ytd night work was ok.
juz tat reach store saw audrey.
argh!
sian.
den i got 1 rider in my store.
he reallie damn small in size.
look like barbie doll.
cute!
i call him 'small boy'
den he call mi 'small ger'
lol.
=p
den small boy oso damn sian tat audrey is still in store.
he keep asking mi to chase her away.
-.-
haa.
den todae.
got management meeting cum dinner.
we 3 stars are invited.
dee shld be going.
den tat li jie very to the too much lor.
still ask got transport to go there or not.
wth.
ppl treat u eat still wan transport.
den mi leh?
im having band prac.
i was thinking to tell ismail tat i may go for prac late coz i got dinner.
see wat he sae lah.
but.

den i told audrey.
'i might not be going'

guess wat audrey sae?!?!
'ok good den i save $24'

WTF!!!
ok lor.
den i decide not to go le.
since she wana save money.
let her save lor.

they going to pasir ris downtown de dunno wat buffet eat lah.
josias better.
once brought us to dunno wat hotel and eat.
next brought us to paris and eat.
ya.
hais.
ppl reallie duuno how to appreciate things when u are having it.
once gone den think of their good.
hais.
he left le den i realise how good he is.
he is not tat bad afterall.
=(

ytd closing was june.
wah piang.
work wif june ar.
fun+crazy+sot!!!
she is reallie fun to work wif lor.
the whole night we 'girlfriend' her 'girlfriend' there.
calling each other 'girlfriend'
lol.
i work till 2am mah.
den she ask mi to acc her to 730am.
i ask y.
den she she so tat i can motivate her to work.
crap!
lol.
=D
den hor.
todae got new promotion.
so ytd night hafta put up those hanging mobiles and change the translite.
janice help to change the translite.
i help to think of ideas.
my ideas good lor.
june muz thank mi.
if not she sway kena complaint.
omg.
bhb lor mi.
lol.
=x
den june sae the hanging mobile she will ask dedy or gao xiang to put up.
den our tansport oso come liao.
den we go off lor.

wah.
tat time the dae b4 fantastic promotion.
i oso got work.
tat time wif louise samuel and joey.
now b4 new promotion.
i work again.
wif june and janice.
sway?
ok lah.
at least wif manager who are fun.
lalala``
if wif audrey.
i cant imagine!
omg.
lol.

later going to j8 pass lu the tix.
den go band.
tats my dae le ba.

hmm.
sometimes if wana do things for ppl.
its reallie not easy.
reallie need alot of effort and everything.
for someone tat i treasure.
i think is worth it.
=)

oh ya!
my ai ren finally blog le.
her last blog was like 1 mth ago.
lol.
ya.
if we different class reallie sian lor.
if reallie different class.
do wat i sae k?
LOL!!
=D

hmm.
back from bartley wif ian.
none of them bought it.
ya.
actually expected de lah.
looked for mrs chou.
she's not free on sundae.
coz of her 2 grandchild.
den ms tay.
ya.
she is SO as sacastic as b4.
so do u think she will buy?
5 yrs down the road.
if ever meet ms tay again.
i tell u.
she will still be as sacastic de.
lol.
=D
met a few more teachers.
but none of them interested.
so.
ok lor.
can sae is a waste trip ba.

congrats to my june san jie.
found her mr right le.
reallie happy for u.
wish u all the best!
=D
im the last one to get attach?
wat if in the future gatherings all bring bf out.
who shall i bring?

zhi wei msg mi.
i din reply.
coz i dunno wat to sae.
and i oso dunno wat he trying to sae.
hmm.
i reallie hope it wun happen wat had happened 5 years ago.

working later at 5pm to 2am i guess.

hmm.
aft the band concert.
wana go and take my BTT leh.
sae wana take it ever since my bdae last year.
but nv.

hais.
i think i had did the wrong decision in the first place ba.
feel like turning back now.
izzit too late?
wat shall i do now?

juz reach home from band.
was ok lor.
meng reallie cant play for concert le.
his reservist leave was not approved.
ismail told us tat he sound sad.
we dun believe.
WATEVER lor.
lol.
lucky got another 'ang mo' playing wif mi.
if not.
i sure die.
wahaha!
=D

later going back to bartley to sell the tix wif ian.
in the morning?!
who the hell teacher will be free?
but ian onli can make it in the morning.
dunno leh.
try our luck lor.

juz now b4 band.
wen to ubkr to pass the tis to samuel.

den he told mi.
'wah i kena cheated le lah'

i replied.
'dun be so bad lah!'

den he sae.
'u better perform a good performance'

i ans.
'ok!'

yup.
i told him i will perform i good one.
i reallie want to perform well.
at least wun let those ppl who come to feel a waste.
if ever there's a second one.
they might wana come again.
so the first one.
is the most important one.
=)

den i oso ask him.
'y u nv ask mi abt my eng results ar?'

he ans.
'u nv make noise of coz pass lah'
-.-

den i replied.
'where got pass.. i got D7'

he ans.
'D7 is still a pass juz not is not credit'

ok lor.
waterver it is.
i juz noe tat i no need to retake anymore.
tats good for mi liao.
haa.

ya.
saw him at ubkr.
the store may look small.
easy to run.
but i think they oso always down crews de.
tat time he still ask mi to attach to there.
but i dun wan.
coz tat dae i was going to disney on ice.
lalala``
den juz noe i saw him running kitchen.
ooo.
poor him.
lol!
=D

oh ya!
i was damn piss off when i juz got online now.
i sign in my msn.
THEY add mi to THEIR conversation.
ok lor.
HE called mi.
so i politely sae 'hi'.
and next i ask.
'wana go my band concert or not?'
HE nv ans mi.
BUT!!!
SHE sae.
'again.......................'
FUCK lor!!!
i nv ask HER!!!
i was asking HIM!!!
i was so damn piss off!!!
angry!!!
and i stop the whole conversation wif THEM!!!
IDIOT HER!!!
orh bi her gpa onli got 1.819.
=x
but her maths got a B!!!
FUCK!!!
ya.
she dun deserve it.
coz my ai ren got a B oso.
she sae.
'damn it'
lol.
=D
she first week nv go for her lesson de lor.
ARGH!!!
UNFAIR!!!
lucky tat is the last sem liao.
next sem no more wif her liao.
FINALLY!!!
hor ai ren?
=P

wondering wat is my ai ren busy wif.
seldom see her online.
nv update blog.
where are u my ai ren?
=P

3 replied mi.
serene(pri sch friend).
dolly and cedric.
all 3 sae cant go.
hmm.

3 more daes to our first band concert.
yup!
im excited!
=D
i noe not all are feeling same way.
but i noe who are the ones felt the same way as mi.
=)

woke up ard 2pm++
lazy mi.
piggy mi.
lol.

di going to my band concert.
thankie!
=D

yup!
congrats to my ai ren!
good results.
well done!
=D

not much to blog for now.
ciaox.

hmm.
now is in the middle of the night le.
im hungry.
omg.
lol.

i was so damn tired aft i finish work.
ya consider ytd lah.
i worked 1000 to 1830.
dunno y juz feel freaking tired.
shld be not enough slp ba.
-.-
working weekdaes is so damn relac lor.
so much different from weekends.
weekends wana go break oso got no time to go.
weekdaes?
ur wish ah!
wana go u go lor.
lol!
=D
hmm.
im the morning i was doing drive thru and mds.
suddenly dunno y got 2 crews come and take over mi.
so wat i do?
nth lor.
haa.
so went to do my party stuffs.
chop invitation cards.
wrapped presents.
did ordering.
i nv do.
think no one will do it ba.
=x
joey still ask we stars to work hand in hand.
how?!
they like dun gif a damn.
wat can i do?
i can onli do my best lor.
hmm.
den faridah did training!
mac got new food coming out on this coming thurs!
cup corn.
fresh salad.
apple dipper.
omg.
i was saeing.
mac is becoming more and more healthier.
tats good oso lah.
lol.
cup corn ok lor.
abt the same as outside like those in pasar malam.
haa.
den the fresh salad is vege now.
last time de is fruits.
now got..
lettuce.
red cabbage.
cherry tomato.
carrot slice.
den got 2 dressing to choose from.
thousand island sauce and asia sesame sauce.
haa.
i oso dunno wat asia sesame.
i din try the salad.
faridah onli did 1.
and let the 2 china crews eat le.
-.-
den the apple dunno nv taste it.
coz stock not arrive yet.
lol.
but i noe is.
sliced apple dip wif LOW FAT caramel.
i htink it will be nice.
but noe wat joey sae.
'tian si ni ah'(sweet to death)
den i told her is 'low fat wat'.
den she reply mi.
'it sae low fat nv sae low sugar'
argh!
-.-
lol.
hmm.
wah.
so i can onli try it next week sia.
lol.
den aft training.
went for my break.
den back to do my stuffs.
den punch out at 1830.
den helped ivy to count the rmcc money.
den oso help to return mcflurry spoons to gec.
aft tat reached home ard 2030.
POOM!
in my dreamland.
lol.
wake up ard 2300.
watching tv.
den suddenly..
jinlong called mi.
b4 i ans.
i was think y on earth he will call mi.
den i ans.
he told mi tat results are out.
my sleepy mood had immediately changed to AWAKE!
lol.
so went to check.
here are the below of my results..

Semester 2 - 2005/2006
EG2002	ELECTRONIC CIRCUIT ANALYSIS	B+
EG2005	ELECTRONIC TROUBLESHOOTING TECHNIQUES	C+
EG2008	ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 2B	DIST
EG2010	ELECTRONIC COMMUNICATION	C+
EG2012	COMPUTER & PROGRAMMING 2	A
EG2048	INTRODUCTION TO MARKETING	B+
EG2097	SEMESTRAL PROJECT 4	P
EG2121	INTERNET COMPUTING	A

Grade Point Average: 3.260

hmm.
was kinda sad tat i got 2 Cs.
im oso quited pleased tat i got 1 dist and 2 As.
reallie nv think of getting A for my c prog lor.
coz im reallie sux in tat.
did my paper for onli 45mins
and my mini projectand flowchart was not tat well done too.
ya.
i think thanx to jason leong ba.
hmm.
reflecting..
troubleshooting got a C.
i think my report was badly written ba.
den hor.
seriously i dunno y my e-comm will get a C lor.
my common test got a B.
i done so badly for my fianl paper meh?
cant rmb le.
or the paper was marked damn strictly?
jinlong oso got a C for e-comm.
somemore his common test got A leh.
he like 'buay song' lor.
he sae he gonna call tat sing sook hiang in the morning to ask y.
funnie lor.
got ask lecturer y i got tat grade.
its like is finalised by dunno who den will release the results de wat.
aiya.
let him go and ask ba.
he ask le den tell mi wat tat sing sook hiang sae lor.
haa.
hmm.
and hor.
my tat marketing.
common test got A.
den final got B.
aiya dunno y lah.
hmm.
or am i being affected coz wat had happen juz b4 the exams?

glad tat di passed.
seline too.
my ai ren shld be sleeping le when i msg her.
=p
good luck!
seline gpa got 1.819.
ai ren im sure u will done better den her lor.

jinlong gpa got 2.9++
coz when he call mi he sae he outside.
asked mi to check for him.

the rest i dunno.
they nv online.
so i nv ask lor.

oh ya.
later going ubkr to pass the tix to samuel.
woo hoo!
so long nv see him le.
dunno hows he.
i think he shld be enjoying life there ba.
less stress den in kallang.
ubkr got no mds.
no drive thru.
no party.
JUZ counter.
lol.
=D

OH YA!!!
the dae is finally here.
zhi wei is in singapore le.
he reallie come to singapore.
i think he reached on sat ba.
hmm.
seriously.
i dunno wat he told mi is true or not.
'wat made him come to singapore'
if reallie its true.
i reallie dunno how to face him lor.
i still got no time to meet him.
damn busy recently.
hmm.
wat shall i do?
i reallie hope he wun scare mi again.
and cause mi to avoid him again.
hope this wun happen AGAIN.

so sweet of shanyun.
added a testi for mi.
hee =P

another of my pri sch replied mi.
not going.
the rest?
heck care?
im still waiting.

btw!
wat is luvina's blog password?!
anybody noe?
hee.
=)

i still haven my disney on ice photos.
omg!

i think god is standing at my side le.
thank god.
more and more ppl helping mi buy my band concert tix le!
yeah!
hee.
=P

samuel agreed to buy 1.
den pluck up my courage to call louise.
=x
she agreed to buy too.
going to pass both the tix to samuel on tue to his store.
2 tix down.
hmm.
hope the both of them buy le will go.
coz i got a feeling tat they wun go leh.
HOPE NOT!!!

den hor!
liang zhi came to my store todae.
i was conducting my party den i saw him.
i was shocked!
den i 'EHH' so loud!
lol.
=D
so i asked him to go to the concert lor.
den i ask him to ask lun siong go oso.
coz tat time lun siong told mi tat he got no friend to go wif him.
hee!
den the both of them sae ok!
wow!
so 2 more tix down.
hmm.
liang zhi is a tubist and lun siong is a clarinetist from macpherson sec de band.
haa.
liang zhi had graduated le lah.
but lun siong now is major at his band.
i forgot band or drum le.
tats y i ask him to ask his band go.
but he sae no one wana go.
omg.
sad.
haa.
but nvm.
the both of them going.
im happie le.
=)

as i said serene working closing tat dae right.
but juz now she sae ok she go watch!
omg!
*touched
thank you!
and mayb her bf going too.
1 more down.
mayb 2.
=)

had ask my yuan mei mei too.
but she sae she will msg mi.
seriously i reallie lost trust in this kind of ppl le.
but.
i trust her.
but hope she wun let mi down.
and hope she can give mi good news too!
=)

ya asked my yuan mei mei.
reminds mi of.
asking desmond.
err.
but i din ask.
dunno is dun dare to ask.
or dun wan to ask.
coz im still upset of his 'un-gentleman-ness' tat dae.
-.-
btw.
he is a tromboniest.
hmm.
i still can rmb the conversation between mi and him when we noe each other is in band.
ya.
dunno y.
i still can rmb these kind of small little things de lor.
i think im lydat de.
is a good thing or a bad thing?

called thama.
he sae ok de.
but the thing is no one acc him go.
but he sae he will find ppl acc him.
den he will buy.
he sae jin kok.
wei jie they all.
but he din mention abt desmond.
not in his 'they all' list?
i dunno.
i wanted to tell him.
'ask desmond oso lah'
but.
like ps leh.
so nv lor.
and hor.
he sae will call mi todae.
but he din.
so how can i continue to trust these kind of ppl?

di sae will confirm wif mi by tmr.
will she?
lets see.
if not.
i think i wun 'pester' her abt this anymore le ba.

ya!
call yu wei aka FISH TAIL!!!
lol.
she sae she 27th going taiwan.
so 26th not free.
ok lor.
she sae if got cd she sure will buy from mi!
lol.
=D

ohh ya!
btw.
june..
miko and siew luang got reply mi.
miko sae she got sth on.
siew luang working.
ya ting nv reply.
plus chui teng and li lin oso nv reply mi.
-.-

juz now i friendster msg my pri sch friends.
and some of my last time kallang friends.
total got 10++ of them.
how many of them will go?
is there possible ALL wun go?
well.
mayb.
who noes.
coz like so long nv contact le.
den suddenly 1 siao one ask u go watch concert.
i feel funnie.
but i still try my luck and ask lor.
those friends who i kept contacted oso dun seem wanting to go.
so if they dun wana go.
i oso cant blame them lor.
=)
hmm.
shan yun reply mi le.
she cant go.
sad!
=(
coz she having driving lesson.
she is 1 of my closest pri sch friend.
nice ger!
=)
but IF the rest of my pri sch friends going.
i tell u.
on the concert dae.
will be 1 of my happiest dae lor.
reallie lor!
haa!
=D
ya.
hope my tat happiest dae will arrive ba.

juz read xiu's blog.
reallie sad to hear her saeing abt her mother.
control her diet and get well soon!
my er jie ah.
cheer up k!
=)

hmm.
my mother is going for a eye operation soon.
it is sort of a minor operation.
quite a common one.
i forgot wats tat call le.
but.
having financial problem.
tats y she had dragged this for quite a long time le lor.
somemore she non-singaporean.
den the hospital expense freaking ex.
-.-
i dunno wat she going to do.
going to apply for some financial assistance or sth lydat.
to reduce the cost lor.
but no matter wat.
still hafta pay couple of hundred dollars de lor.
wif my savings.
as i oso not allowed to use my pay much.
i can afford to pay for her de.
but i noe she didan want to use my money.
she will always sae is for my future.
but till the time come.
no other ways le.
she will still take my money and use de.
ya.
hais.
im living wif this problem for almost 19yrs.
is reallie xing ku.
gif mi 10 more yrs.
am i married and had already get rid of this problem?
and having a xing fu and happie life?
ya.
i reallie hope so.
i think sometimes i reallie hafta think of the bright side.
'xian ku hou tian'
mayb this cheng yu is true.
=)

coming week im damn busy.
all my 7 daes are packed wif activities lor.
working.
band-ing.
not forgetting happy-ing!
gathering!
and lastly.
CONCERT!!!
omg!
-.-

hais.
my mood real sux now.
i dunno y.
ya.
my mood swing reallie change fast.

hais.
im reallie sorry tat im hating ppl those im not suppose to hate.
but.
is all u cause de.
had mi mi so hate it.
hais.
i admit tat my life reallie sux.
they 'suppose' to be my closest kin.
but now.
i reallie dun feel tat AT ALL.
seriously.
im reallie envy those ppl ard mi having their family so supporting them.
i reallie dun find mine like theirs.
hais.
i reallie dunno how to describe wats my feeling.
its 10 times more sad den sad.
or even hundred?
or even thousand?
hais.
i think this problem cant be solved le.
or.
i think i shld not blame anything.
since it had already in this situation.
i shld accept it.
do the best i can do ba.
they wun ever noe wat i wan.
they wun ever noe wat im thinking.
they wun ever noe how i feel.

tats y i promise myself.
in the future.
i wun ever let my children suffer wat im suffering now.
=)

lun siong not going for the concert le.

di still cant confirm coz her bf may be working.

samuel still din gif mi a reply.

seriously.
i think i had given up selling the tix le ba.
still cant confirm or still haven gif mi a reply.
im not going to ask again.
sold 3.
and i think tats it.
juz tat i reallie dun wish to see alot of empty seats when performing.
imagine..
it will be a veri sad thing lor.
hais.
juz pray hard it wun happen lor.

not in the mood of blogging.
im sorry.

ytd went to bugis m1 shop.

yep!

i finally bought a new phone.

lol.

its like i wanted a new phone last yr my bdae.

i wanted v3 pink.

but no stock.

waited and waited.

no news from tat parkway m1 shop.

fine.

dragged and dragged.

till ytd.

finally!

=D

i bought nokia 7370.

hee.

go check it out the phone.

=P

aft buying my phone.

den went to watch disney on ice!

ya brought sao wee there.

he seems like my little brother to mi.

hee.

=P

the show was cool.

yupp!

so many disney characters.

so kawaii!

took some pics.

but no time to upload!

=x

short post for now.

rushing to work at 6pm to 2am!

-.-

btw!

tml meeting yun zhu and june!

see ya!

im sad.

i cried.

STUPID FOOL SILLY SUET!!!

SHIT ME!!!

ARGH!!!

its reallie veri difficult for mi to forget someone who had once entered my life.

very long nv blog le.

i wana vent out my ANGER!!!

when i recieve HER msg on mondae.

my first reaction was.

'fuck off lah you!'

hais.

its abt the band concert lor.

i asked her to go and support mi.

but her reply was.

'dun wan.. i gif u moral support can le.. jia you wor..'

fucker..

mayb u all think tat i shld be touched or wat lah.

but this time at tat particular moment.

i totally dun felt tat.

coz mi and her sort-of-quite-close-friend.

but its like under bo bian situation den close wif her de.

the bottom line is.

i dun like her!

den asked her to go support.

den gave mi tat type of reply.

im like sort of totally disappointed.

hais.

is like.

i had spent so much time practising.

all my hard work.

all my effort.

finally the big dae is here.

i reallie hope ppl can go and watch.

go there support.

so tat i wun feel a waste of my effort for tat concert.

i dun wan wat moral support.

now.

i reallie need action-support!!!

or they juz simply dunno how to enjoy music.

so now.

aft this.

i noe who are my TRUE friends.

yep.

i TOT i got alot of friends.

i even EXPECT most of them will go and watch.

or i think my expectations are too high le ba.

got a saying.

'xi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da'

tats y im so disappointed now.

another thing is.

the number of TRUE friends im having.

is reallie countable using my 10 fingers.

but im satisfied le.

im not greedy.

i wun ask for more.

=)

most importantly!!!

i reallie wana thank..

janice.

faridah.

sahhidah.

from my workplace de.

they are the first 3 to help mi buy my concert tix!!!

wahaha!!

im reallie happy lor.

i tot they wun go de lor.

is like onli close wif them while working.

outside work din reallie meet them for meal or wat.

den when i asked faridah wana go or not.

she asked mi the details lor.

she said ok!!

im shocked!

=D

den she ask mi.

'den i go alone ar?'

i replied her.

'oh! nvm! i help u find ppl go!'

lol.

den i asked janice.

she oso sae ok.

they got no second tot de lor.

den faridah asked sahhidah to go.

she oso on lor.

wah!

im reallie touched when they sae they wana go.

i told them.

'u all beri good leh.. go and watch.. my friends dun wana go lor'

den faridah sae 'huh so bad ah'

den janice sae 'see we so good'

ya lor they beri good.

somemore the 3 of them working in the morning on tat dae lor.

see on the concert dae if u all see anybody wearing mac uniform.

they are from my store de.

lol.

and one funnie thing happen.

i asked siew wah to go.

she kept on nodding her head.

-.-

den i asked her again.

she asked mi where.

i told her VCH.

den she dun wana go liao.

coz she dunno how to go.

she tot at indoor stadium.

tats y she nod her head.

wth!

indoor stadium?!?!

where got so wei da.

lol.

den i tell her.

if ever i got my band concert at indoor stadium.

i gif her free tix to go ar!

LOL!!!

=D

crap leh her.

sth to add on.

'siew wah' i said is my workplace de auntie manager.

haha!

wanted to ask audrey to go oso.

but im scared to ask her.

haa!

she is my restaurant manager.

my store de biggest manager.

i oso dunno y i so scared her.

den they sae i siao.

lol.

finally i asked her.

she sae she dunno free or not.

phew``

at least i got ask her.

wait sekali she noe abt this concert thingy.

i asked the whole store.

din ask her.

seems like no respect.

lol!

too bad joey and june work in the dae and evening.

so they cant go lor.

tat ivy oso cannot go.

she took leave to go back sabah.

den too bad lor.

haa.

hafta ask serene wana go or not.

coz she working closing tat dae.

scared cannot rush to work leh.

had oso asked my store de mother.

who i called her lao bu in store.

i asked her to go.

she haven gif mi an exact ans.

haa.

will ask her again.

=p

had asked samuel to go oso!

haa.

but he had to confirm wif mi again.

coz he working opening.

den hor.

he beri sickening de leh.

he asked mi how much is the tix.

i told him $10.

his reply was.

'wah so cheap-skate ah'

WTH!!!

bad lor him.

-_-''

thinking of asking josias to go leh.

he is my ex-restaurant manager.

coz tat time i told him i will be having band concert mah.

he told mi can ask him to go when time.

but he had already transferred out.

scared to call him oso.

lol.

timid mi.

-.-

but hor.

suddenly i think of.

if samuel going.

i better dun ask josias.

coz they 2 buay gam de.

so.

better not.

haa.

but.

if samuel and serene going.

both of them oso buay gam.

omg.

wth.

-.-

thinking of asking yu wei to go.

tat fish tail!!!

haa!

beri long nv see her liao.

mayb call her todae and ask her.

thinking of asking louise.

she transfered to CTP le.

scared to call her oso.

omg!

shit mi lah!

if samuel going.

ask him help mi ask her.

lalala``

wait i call her.

she dunno wana suan mi wat liao.

pengx``

same reason as audrey.

wait she found out.

nv jio her go.

like nv respect her.

err.

izzit call respect?

sth abt tat meaning lah.

wanted to ask my store de those teenagers to go de.

but.

wait i asked them to go.

nobody work.

wait serene kill mi.

wahaha!

had already asked lun siong to go le.

but he haven gif mi any reply till now.

-.-

hope di can gif mi a positive reply.

=)

mayb dee will go.

i oso dunno.

she go i think she will go wif her ivan.

i dun reallie like his attitude.

opps!

=x

hais.

this concert thingy is like making mi so fan.

everything will be over aft 26mar.

but.

if there is another chance of having band concert.

i dun mind join again.

hmm.

i simply love playing my instrument.

although not tat pro.

haa.

=D

yep.

now holidaes le.

first week.

chalet for 3 daes.

slacked for 2 whole daes.

now second week le.

start to tune my life to working life le.

will be working everydae since nobody seems free.

so no one will like ask mi out.

so work lor.

haa.

im going to watch disney on ice later!!!

woo hoo!!!

=D

im excited lor.

saw the pics from yun's blog.

looks nice.

looks cool.

hee.

=p

din siloso as wat i said ytd.

coz shan told mi tat she was called backed last min to work.

ok lor.

no more siloso.

no more shih lin.

hais.

im rotting again.

omg``

hmm.

let mi start from ytd night.

went to band.

reached there 1915.

a few of them nia.

took my instrument den practice on my own lor.

no combine.

juz sectional.

practice till 2115.

mo see asked us to keep liao.

so pack up den go off.

den we went to the coffee shop there sit down and talk.

got mi.

florence.

regina.

alice.

ismail.

soefian.

we all talking abt the band alumni bbq.

which is tml.

thinking of who to call for the bbq and who to call to watch the concert.

and im like being psyco-ed by ismail to go to the bbq.

ok lor.

haa.

tml band prac is at 8am.

OMG!!!

8AM!!!

reallie need morning call man.

lol.

prac till 6pm.

den aft tat go to bbq straight.

this month got quite a number of bbq sia.

heaty``

lol.

hmm.

glad tat u noe tat somthings u are allowed to do when u are young.

too bad.

sad to sae.

im one of ur 'victims'.

till now.

abt 5yrs had past.

hope u wun do it again.

hmm.

yep.

to mi.

i admit tat our relatonship is close recently.

ya tats wat i think lah.

who noes u treat others the rest oso the same way?

god noes.

i had been thinking.

are u reallie the one?

but.

im reallie sorry to sae.

i still haf doubts on u.

i think u cant blame mi.

coz u are the first one who gave the first cut on my heart.

im hurt deeply.

and u had caused mi dunno how many sleepless nights.

and dunno how many litres of tears gone.

now think back.

i think im silly+foolish+stupid to take it seriously.

but no choice.

im not like others who can take relationship lightly.

i cant!

hais.

if u reallie wana be the one.

juz do and prove it tat u are the one.

u may be reading this.

or i noe u will noe this somehow or rather.

=)

sometimes how i wish i can read ppl's mind.

noe wat they thinking.

den i no need to try to read their mind.

made mi think so much.

omg!
plz help mi!
im bored to death man.
had been rotting on my bed till like..
3pm?
reallie nth to do.
y no work?
coz i din tell serene i can work.
the rest of the gers oso busy wif their work.

hmm.
still rmb in the past.
i think im the one who is busiest working.
hee.
shld be starting to work next week le ba.
this sundae go work den go request to work lor.
if not i think i will gone crazy ba.
lol.
ytd serene called mi to asked mi work on sat.
wah!
i die die tell her i cannot.
if not i die lor.
nv go band prac.
AGAIN.
wait kena nag again.
haa.
better dun work.

hmm.
tml i oso free like hell.
msged shan.
yeah!
tml we siloso-ing!
siloso i miss u!!!
here i come!!!
=D
aft siloso we sure rot at shih lin again.
our fav place aft siloso.
hor shan?
XXL crispy chix.
oyster mee sua.
wah.
omg.
im hungry.
=P

later going to band.
...

yo!

im here again.

had changed my blog song le.

to micheal learns to rock's 25 minutes.

came across this song when i went kbox wif seline and di tat dae.

they sang this song.

found it nice.

meaningful too.

i starting to like this type of eng smoothing songs.

=)

oh ya!

sth to add on on my class chalet post.

i went to buy cigaratte!

for the FIRST time!

lol.

=D

of coz not for mi lah.

helped zhao to buy de.

den the auntie checked my ic.

lol.

juz came back from my class chalet.
reallie the pathetic 8 of us.
-.-

i reached di's place on mon ard 12+pm.
i put down the stuffs i brought.
den both of us went to sheng siong at loyang point to buy stuffs tat we need.
those bbq needs and food.
of coz we din buy drinks and charcol!
asked the guys to buy.
haa!
buy liao.
went back to di's place.
she cooked fried rice.
long tong goreng.
its nice ok.
her bf is fortunate man!.
=P
den i was wrapping all those sweet potatoes, corn and sotong.
aft everything is done.
ai ren took a cab from her auntie place to take marinated chix and sotong.
come and fetch us.
den we went downtown.
by the time we reached.
the 3 guys was already there.
playing pool.
-.-
we reached the chalet.
settled down.
slacked.
asked those guys to buy charcol, fire starters and everything.
aft tat den we start bbq le lor.
den oso got dai dee.
philip de vodka.
nice!
=D
first night din drank much.
den first night onli left wif mi, gan jiong and zhao ton.
the rest went to slp.
den we 3 dai dee whole night lor.
haa!
i onli slp for few hrs.
7+ went to slp ba.
10+ philip wake up.
den mi, gan jiong, philip and di went for breakfast.
the rest still sleeping.
-.-
we went bk for breakfast.
da bao back for seline.
den mi and di went to swim.
i went to tan too.
lol.
=D
swim for ard 1hr+ ba.
came up.
den we 3 gers and 3 guys went play pool.
hell lor.
i dun even noe how to play.
but had learnt the basic.
but i played how many games.
lose how many games lor.
I WANA PLAY AGAIN!
=x
den we 3 gers oso got went arcade.
awhile onli lah.
aft pool and arcade.
we went back.
wana play mahjong oso cannot.
philip brought mahjong.
but there got no table.
we went to asked.
they sae it had already been ban le.
wth.
so we got an idea from the next door chalet ppl.
they told us they play at the bed.
wahaha.
den we oso play like them.
haa!
=D
played a few rounds.
bbq starts le.
went to eat lor.
yeah.
vodka again.
wah.
second night i drank more.
drank till abt to drunk le.
den of coz stop drinking le lor.
if not siao lor.
haa!
to stop drinking and to stop mi from being drunk.
i went back to the room and slacked.
it took mi abt 1hr+ so tat i wun feel tat drunk.
hais.
den i sian lor.
seline bf book out.
she went to acc her bf le.
di bf came.
she got acc oso.
ai ren got her johan.
wah.
left mi lor.
lone ranger?
hais.
its already past midnight le.
the rest was sleeping le.
so second night left wif mi, zhao and philip ton lor.
we dai dee-ing lor.
wat else.
i drank a can of beer.
wah!
the taste of beer reallie SUX lor!
till ard 3+am.
the guys watched their soccer.
nth for mi to do.
nobody acc mi.
i went to slp lor.
di went off earlier coz she was working.
den we all wake up ard 9+.
packed our thingy.
bathed le den check out le lor.
lucky philip send mi home.
thanx ah.
=D
quite tired now lor.

this is how my class chalet.
photos will be uploaded soon.
go to my links and see ba.
=)
some photos quite rubbish!
=x

it looks like i drank alot this time.
but not as much as i ton at samuel hse tat time.
wah!
tat time worst ah!
=x

[p.s. june] - dun be so sad tat u cant see the rest of the sis.. we ALL will meet up real soon k? =) yeah`` 3 more weeks to our.. big dae? tats our concert! omg! am i dreaming? lol =D we use the rest of these 3 weeks to practice our best and perform our best k? i believe we can do it de! =) btw tat dae we went to dinner when u din join us.. darren tot i juz got my o's results and he asked mi wat sch i posted to!! WAT THE!!! -.- den hor one more thing.. i reallie dunno how to sell the tix leh june.. how.. all my friends dun wana go.. dun wana go support mi.. so sad.. =(

[p.s. joanne] - hey ger! thanx and i reallie appreciate wat u had done.. concern abt mi.. sort of to protect mi ba.. but hor.. juz stop tagging at his blog.. i juz dun wan any chaostic to happen there.. i reallie find it useless lor.. no matter how much u guys tagged.. he is still he.. i doubt he will change.. he still missed his ex.. juz let him continue missing her lor.. i had already kan kai le.. juz let him continue his life on his own way.. and i continue my life wif my way.. ok? thanx! love ya! =D

[p.s. luvina] - hey i agreed wif june! go put a tagboard at ur blog! hee =P miss ya!

hmm.
now suddenly reminds mi of one song.
SHE's bu xiang zhang da.
dunno u all listen got look at the lyrics or not.
if got the chance.
juz look at the lyrics while listening it.
the lyrics reallie damn meaningful.
=)

back from irene de engagement party.
err.
it was kinda.
boring?
coz we dunno the ppl there mah.
but at least i get to meet my long-time-no-see jies.
i met yun, iris and xiu.
they all was wif their bf.
...
i was real shocked to see iris there lor.
LOL!
=D
we reached there.
we all sat at the room.
talking.
or are we gossiping?
=x
lol.
den aft tat had the buffet.
aft tat sat a little longer den went off ard 7++.
was waiting for shan and lu.
but they were SO LATE.
so we din wait for them den went off.

reached home ard 9+ ba.
started to make jellies for my class chalet tml.
sians.
dunno like a class chalet or not sia.
those guys hor.
hais.
i shld be going di's hse first to put my stuffs.
den we go buy stuffs.
hmm.
juz hope tat this chalet will goes on smoothly.
=)

yup.
todae im not working.
yuppie!
i deserve it de lor.
i mc.
but im going out.
lol.
=D
i dun care.
hmm.
i think i start to sick and tired of working le.
=x
hais.

yeah.
later meeting some of my jies for irene's engagement chalet.
mayb will meet seline and di to buy our stuffs for our chalet.
haa.
so damn freaking long not working on sundae and to go out.
im so happie.
la la la``
=P

i reallie wana ENJOY my this holidaes!!!
coz i think i got no more holidae aft this le.
aft sch reopen.
16 weeks of study.
2 weeks of exam.
den straight away start our 12 weeks of project and 12 weeks of attachment le!
no more 6 weeks of holidaes le!
so wana enjoy this last one!!!
lol.
=D

hmm.
i admit this time is my fault.
im sorry!
if u noe who u are.
if not.
too bad.
=x

[ps] LUVINA - hey read ur blog.. thanx man my si jie!! yeah i always noe tat i still haf U ALL!! hee =P but.. the guy whom love mi one and onli.. seems like real FAR from mi.. =x

[ps] JOANNE - hey i read ur blog too!! thanx lots man my wu jie!! aft reading ur blog.. i reallie feel so xing fu.. it shows tat its nv a waste for mi to continue living in this world.. although its a fucked-up world to mi sometimes =x

hmm.
when den i meet my TAT guy?
how long will i hafta wait?
well.
who noes?
hmm.
i think im not being selfish.
i wan my dream guy to be.
love mi onli.
care mi onli.
concern mi onli.
dote mi onli.
isn't this wat every ger wan their dream guy to be?
or am i demanding too much?

wow.
quite a number of daes din blog le.

02march(thurs):

went to sch and mug.
but cant study much.
we all talking abt where to go and wat to do aft our last paper.
talking abt our class de bbq.
haa.
ended up din studied much.
aft tat decide to ton and study.
coz fri de paper is morning 0830.
we so we decided to go yishun mac ton.
alot of ppl.
better understanding den b4 lor.
haa.

03march(fri):

den we left art 6++ to go back to sch.
den had the paper.
2hrs de paper.
i finish in ard 40min.
lol.
the paper was okok lor.
i think can pass ba.
i oso dunno.
haa.
dun care liao lor.
last paper.
nv think so much abt the paper.
i juz noe tat.
tat was the last paper.
can enjoy liao!!!
haha!
den we go chiong kbox.
mi, seline and di chiong from 1130 to 1900.
lol.
=D
pro hor?
sing till we song.
but still like not enough for us lor.
wahaha.
den went home.
went to bed ard 2330.
but slag till 1+ oso cant slp in peace.
i was coughing like hell.
hais.

03march(sat):

went to see ANOTHER doctor.
this is the third doctor i had seen within a mth.
jia lat hor.
aft tat went to band.
met june ard 1+ lydat.
den we go.
the practice till 10pm lor.
tired.
suppose to be working.
but i go see doctor.
den got mc.
so nv go work.
tml i oso mc de lor.
but audrey sae if cant find den i hafta work.
idiot de lor.
hais.

im real tired now.
ciaox.

there goes another cut on my heart.
again.
its bleeding.
hais.

i hao xin tell him.
remind him.
ended up he gave mi tat type of reply.
im sad.
im angry.
FINE.
he sae 'watever'.
so.
WATEVER lor!!!
he dun even wana care for himself.
den y muz i care?!?!
i can jolly well DUN gif a DAMN to it!!!
i wanted to ignore him.
dun wana care le.
but i cant.
i juz simply cant do it.
hais.
tats my weakness.
wat to do.

hais.
reallie alot of things happened juz b4 my exams.
during my exams.
i told myself to settle it aft my exams.
but i keep on thinking abt it.
over and over again.
made mi reallie fan.
lucky i still can concentrade on my paper.
exams going end soon.
but i still dunno wat to do.
ya.
i noe juz do wat i wana do.
juz do wat my mind and wat my heart saes.
but now.
seriously i got no idea.
im reallie fear tat i go the wrong way.
i fell down again.
i can go and die le ba.
=x

y is there ALOT of downs is my life?
and there is not much ups?
hais.

suddenly wana shout out everything.
wana cry out everything.
yeah.
cry is a good way of fa xie ba.
hmm.
tats wat i always do?
well.
mayb.
who noes..

had my maths paper.
was alright.
left wif 1 last paper.
c prog.
on fri.
the suck-est module ba.
hate it from year 1 de c prog 1.
and now c prog 2.
as sucky as b4.
lol.
juz now aft maths paper.
tried to mug c prog wif ai ren.
but nth goes into brain ba.
first is coz dunno wat to study.
second i think is coz aft paper den tired.
den we rotted at tutorial.
no poker.
no dai dee.
sian.
lol.
i rot till ard 5+ lydat den i go off.

fri last paper!
im officially free from exam!!!
ya.
for this sem nia.
haa.
so fast going year 3 liao.
if i successfully pass my this sem de exam lah!
=x
wah.
reallie fast lor.
the feeling is like juz entered nyp.
=p

ai ren had booked our class de chalet.
6, 7 and 8 march.
3daes 2 nights.
ended up.
looks like onli 8 ppl going.
wth.
pathetic hor.
mi.
ai ren and her johan.
seline.
di.
philip.
gan jiong.
zhao.
jinlong sae he not free.
oso dunno wats wrong wif him lah.
recently he like anti-social to the guys oso.
den norman and yuwei.
see their pattern oso noe tat they wun go this type of activity de lor.
den the REST.
is we anti-social them.
dun like to be wif them.
lol.
leonard sae he wana go.
we heard liao.
-faint-
haa.
looking for more ppl to go leh.

hey yun da jie.
congrats for ur results wor!
u got wat u expected?
hope so ba!
=)